I had been fighting what I thought was the flu at my job for the last two weeks. I had actually missed 6 days in a row. Anyway, I was back at work. Had been for three days. And I was outside walking around and interacting with the children, when I started dripping sweat from…
Category: My past
“Fight Song”
I have had a terrible last two weeks. …. So many nightmares. Night terrors. Waking up crying out people’s names. Sobbing in my sleep (David said I was saying “Merry’s” name during those.) Fighting the exhaustion of working out. Incredibly hot weather (85 F with 80% humidity). Bleh. Applying for jobs. Getting rejected for grocery…
I have my stuff!!!! Thank God!
Last week, I got approved for a very high amount credit card from USAA. Thankfully, I am still on the mortgage and title to my old house (which is over 50% paid off). David agreed that the toaster oven from my Aunties is far superior to his 15-year-old one. So … I have it all….
Harder week.
So, I started the week with non-stop diarrhea and gagging. (Pedylate did not help.) Moved into massive phone calls from my old neighborhood in Eureka to let me know Betty’s house had caught on fire. Opps. Betty died and the house was sold for a LOT of money. Long story short: my house was fine….
I think I am detoxing
And it has sucked. Sweating at all hours. Crazy, wild dreams. But at least I am getting the trazadone out of my system. It spent months in my system, but I am hoping it takes about twenty-one days to leave my system. Outside of that, David and I start working out in the morning tomorrow….
3 Trazadone …
Worked. Like wonderfully worked. I fall asleep in about twenty minutes instead of the two-and-a-half hours that it took me to fall asleep on two trazadone. I have slept over 8 hours (10 hrs total but wake ups and restlessness) the past four nights. I feel wonderful. Panic attacks still. Fighting doctor who doesn’t want…
fuckkkkkkk!!!!
Service details Dispatch number: 443389894 Service tag: 4XXSSD3 Case Number: 172944432 Express service code: 10759283607 Contact details Contact name: Annabelle Huff Address: 3405 PINE ST,,95503 ,CA ,EUREKA I called one customer service and got a supervisor. She said she couldn’t cancel the technician. And told me to call Microsoft. I called another customers service line…
Shoot. I am doing it again
Forgetting to post. It was a good week. David and I balanced the budget and have an account to hold that money. (No more fear that we are spending bill money on food.) Really great news: the budget is in the BLACK! Really great news. This year was about paying down our combined debts. And…
Creeping to the surface
So … I feel like I am still paying for my mistakes. My past sins. One of the biggest is going to Alabama. My storage unit was paid in full going that way, but then Kris killed himself. And I had to get my stuff to U-haul. I have one of their largest shipping tickets…
Teagen
I am reaching out to those I lost over my thirteen-year marriage. One of the precious people to me is Teagen. Dad, you remember her right? The really tall, gorgeous, Swedish blonde that was my best friend in college and we roommated together for years after college. She hated my ex on site. Anyway, I…